"See you in December," he said and he just strolled away toward the door of the enormous Sampson Hall. He was referring to my planned road trip I want to do during my school's winter break to see a few friends on the east coast which he is desperately trying to persuade me to go several hours out of my way to Pensacola where he will be for Aviation training.
"See you when you come visit south Florida," I replied and continued walking down the cobblestone path toward the parking lot. And that was it. My time at the USNA ended, I got in my car and drove home. Oddly, it felt right.
I have forever been a creature of comfort. This summer I needed to come to Maryland. Period. The past two years I have been trying to make Tampa my comfort zone unsuccessfully. As hard as you try, some things are just not meant to be and you often find out in the most difficult ways. I called the IPO director out of sheer desperation, feeling at that point if I did not get back to Maryland I may actually die.
When I showed up at the USNA I was so out of place. Clueless about the military and what goes on inside the gates, I must have looked like a fish out of water. But as the saying goes: fake it till you make it, and I did just that for a few weeks. It's amazing how awkward I can be around certain people and in particularly situations (my college roommates know this to a tee). Yet there have been a handful of people and a handful of situations in my life that I have been so incredibly drawn to and able to thrive in that make all the difference. This summer was the perfect example.
I met the best group of people. Yes, my director was a micromanaging douche bag. And yes, there was an employee that hated me for reasons I never knew. And an Ensign who turned out to be the laziest piece of sh*t I've ever met. These are facts. But even these people a little piece of me still loves. Yes, love. Because of the sheer force of goodness and wholesomeness within the other employees at the IPO. Julia Beth in her gentle and kind ways taught me everything I know about International Programing. Gary taught me the meaning of life as he knows it. Chuck introduced me to every person he knows at the Academy. Stephanie was my daily dose of sunshine and happiness. LeeAnn earned my respect by the way she tolerates the director. I love Yaya's attitude and spunk. And the TADs helped me keep my sanity by making me laugh so hard my stomach hurt. And each and every person I met outside of the IPO welcomed me with open arms and a smile on their face. They were willing to teach, help, and provide whatever they could to me.
Monday Julia Beth organized the office to take me out to lunch. Only a few people could attend but I was grateful nonetheless. The director himself came. Overall, he must have told me 5 times how much the office is going to miss me and how thankful they were to have me. Knowing my director, it is for selfish reasons that he will miss me but nevertheless I appreciated his attempt at a kind statement. Monday after word Gary took the TADs and I out for a happy hour. Both Gary and Buddy's wife joined us and we joked that we were until staying until 2am, not a second later. Well, we almost did make it to that point I'm proud to say! It was the perfect evening, I laughed nonstop, got more advice someone I admire greatly, and got to spend more time with the friends I've made this summer.
And then yesterday I did some more work for Julia Beth as usual. Buddy, Derek and I goofed off excessively in our tiny office, I think all of us knowing that the summer was ending. Derek is leaving Friday and Buddy in a few weeks. I did my final goodbyes to every one in the office, though for one of the first times leaving somewhere it truly felt like "see you later." Then, as I was fully preparing myself to say goodbye to the guys they announced "We're getting cupcakes." This is why we're friends.
Cupcakes turned into a trip to CVS which turned into a trip to a jewelry store which turned into hanging out at Buddy's with his wife. It certainly felt like a situation where we kept looking at each other and silently knowing one of us would have to break off eventually, but thinking please don't do it just yet. But finally, I had to. Because I know this won't be our ending. I've moved a lot in my life, and started and ended a lot of friendships. I think I have a pretty good eye for the type of people who might stick around, and those you'll fall out of touch with. I know that the people from the IPO will be in my life for many years to come.
The IPO gave me a chance. I learned, I laughed, I tried, I succeeded, I failed, I gained so much. I will miss the people, I will miss the beauty of the yard, I will miss downtown Annapolis. It boosted my confidence, brought me back to MD for 3 months and gave me the inspiration I need to enter the next phase of my life. I will FOREVER be grateful.